What is my dizziness showing me?
Today is a dizzy day.
I am lightheaded, slightly dizzy and I have some subtle vertigo when I move my head or body in certain ways.
I have been dealing with this on and off for years now. In the past, I have attributed it to stress, burnout, fatigue, and Epstein Barr.
“I haven’t been dizzy in months” was something I said to my parents just last weekend.
“I think it’s because I stopped drinking, I have been doing kundalini yoga and I have been resting a lot more.”
What happened the next day? I got smacked with dizziness. And it hasn’t left my side since.
It has pretended to lighten up only to resurface if I dare to think, “maybe it’s gone”.
In the past, I would have experienced my dizziness as a burden — as something that prevented me from going about my day and being productive.
Now, I contemplate it.
I ask:
Why has my dizziness chosen to be present today?
What is it trying to tell me or show me?
What is my dizziness creating space for?
I have been doing so much intense energetic work. So much clearing. So much pattern releasing.
My body is releasing, processing and detoxifying, which requires a lot of rest, nourishment, gentleness, and patience.
Now, instead of becoming frustrated by what my body is taking from me or preventing me from doing, I see that my body is giving me something...and it’s my job to be open and available to receive it.
Instead of complaining.
Instead of forcing myself to work inside at my computer.
Instead of pushing my body to be OK too quickly.
I am taking the afternoon to move slowly, to ground my body in the earth, to soak up the sunshine, and to meditate this gorgeous maple tree.
Let’s be honest. This is a chaotic, transformative period of rebirth.
Every person I talk to is experiencing some sort of ego death, grief, loss, illness or transformation...whether they are ready for it or not.
And we can either fight, force, deny, and push our way through.
Or, we can surrender to the gifts that are being presented to us.
It’s all a matter of perspective.
