Healing is the new high

Partaking in cannabis used to make me feel freer.

Along with alcohol, it used to give me courage and a quick way to be “on” and ready to interact with others.

It made small talk impossibly interesting.

It helped me loosen up and relax.

Lately, though, it has had a different impact.

I become quiet and withdrawn.

The energy around me becomes too intense and I retreat into a blurry haze.

At the same time, I have started to feel *high* when I am not high.

Trippy visuals and patterns play behind my eyelids.

My body hums with trance-like tingles.

The edges of nature are beginning to blur as I perceive this experience through my human eyes.

And I am becoming more and more sensitive to stimulants.

After already being alcohol-free for the past 90 days, I am now removing a few other stimulants from my life: cannabis and coffee.

Where I used to find courage and confidence, energy and excitement, I now feel overstimulated and numbed at the same time.

My friends, healing is the new high.