Becoming requires believing

Am I alone in feeling a bit like I'm on an island at the moment, surrounded by an ocean of uncertainty and trepidation?

I keep getting reinforcement on my way of being in the world -- grounded, full of joy, shining. People keep telling me this is how I'm showing up; they keep reflecting that message back to me.

The problem is, I don't yet believe it myself.

Am I really showing up that way?
Is it safe to embody this way of being in the world?
Will I still come across as credible and commanding?
Will people stop taking me seriously if I am light and joyous?
Why do I care so much?

Sometimes I can feel the truth about my purer, wiser state of being, and sometimes it feels like it's hidden from me.

👉 Wondering if any of you have ever felt tentative about stepping into a new version of yourself?

I'd love to hear about what that was like for you and if you have any tips or words of encouragement as I continue on my "shedding" process.

Thanks for listening. ❤️

Asparagus growth cycles

I read somewhere that asparagus can grow bent or curved if it is overwhelmed by weeds or doesn’t have enough space.

For the last year, I have been feeling like this asparagus.

Going in circles.

Twisting back in on myself.

Growing a bit only to wind up back where I was before.

Sometimes personal growth and learning can feel expansive and sometimes it feels like your breakthroughs are things you already knew many years earlier.

I suppose I am slowly accepting that growth can be cyclical, spiral and meandering.

We might return to things we learned before only to use that knowledge in a new way.